10 Months

Its been 10 months!! 10 months of activities, events, all sorts, most of which I haven’t even understood my own innermost thoughts. Months of tired of living with myself  ’cause of lack of understanding and comprehension of who I am.

Its been 10 months the last of which so many things have happened…crazy and beautiful things… ‘would have used the words good and bad but I am of the understanding that things just don’t happen, especially to a child of God. Bad things are good in themselves, we just have to understand the purpose for which they happen and know that all things work together for our good.

In that line I will say some crazy things have happened to me recently that I have needed grace and divine understanding to handle, it hasn’t been easy, not at all. There have been times when I fought God! yes physically,
verbally… quarreled with Him cause things were happening to me that Him and I did not plan together, it just wasn’t adding up. I was heartbroken and it was God who had broken my heart. I struggled with my self, with my faith and everything I believed in, I backslided, I sinned, I went mad, all in the name of lack of understanding.

As much as I wish to write here all the things that have happened in the last 10 months, I will dwell consciously on the positive….the last 10 months have seen me through NYSC, change of jobs…resigned from my former place of work without any plan but gainfully employed right now in a company I love. Took a wonderful trip outside the country to relax when it seemed like things were heating up too much for me , started a business of my own, met wonderful people who are imparting greatly in my life right now. I could go on and on. At this juncture, I am sure you start to wonder what wrong, well that is a story for another day.

As for my absence on my blog, its not like I have not had the urge to write in the last 10 months, write about my hurt, my triumphs, my opinions, my innermost thoughts, but I would have been biased, I would have written wrong things and I don’t want to mislead anyone, ’cause reality is people tend to store in them things they believe are interesting, and interesting things are not necessarily right things.

In all, what I am trying to say is I am back. Back to writing again on my blog, my innermost thoughts…so help me God.